A rich, penetrating memoir about the author's relationship with a flawed but influential figurethe painter Lucian Freudand the satisfactions and struggles of a life lived through art.One of Britain's most important contemporary painters, Celia Paul has written a reflective, intimate memoir of her life as an artist. SelfPortrait tells the artist's story in her own words, drawn from early journal entries as well as memory, of her childhood in India and her days as a art student at London's Slade School of Fine Art; of her intense decadeslong relationship with the older esteemed painter Lucian Freud and the birth of their son; of the challenges of motherhood, the unresolvable conflict between caring for a child and remaining commited to art; of the 'invisible skeins between people,' the profound familial connections Paul communicates through her paintings of her mother and sisters; and finally, of the mystical presence in her own solitary vision of the world around her.SelfPortrait is a powerful, liberating evocation of a life and of a lifelong dedication to art.
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